Sket lagi, Lupa nak cter

Ha...arituh g Karok ngan dak2 neh. Ahahhahaha, aku pasti aku da gler. Well, Farish ngok jumpa kawan2 dia n aku tanak nyanyi so Azrin ngan Ewan la nyanyi smpai abes suara. Hahahaha. Diornag berangin gak ngan aku sbb aku xnak nyanyi. Hahaha. Segan ah, panas2 rasa muka aku. Ewan kata dia nak nyanyi lagu Zombie tapi xtau rhyme so ajak aku sekali, aku ngan susah payahnya ok la, time aku nak nyanyi je dak ongek Azrin tu dok mandang sengih2, Woit...............adei....segan la oit...hui, igt skang pun meremang bulu roma aku. Ah, aku bgtau aku nak g kl then Azrin ongek kata dia nak g next week, dia kata ada misi then aku cucuc la owh...nak jumpa awek, dia kata mana ada, aku bgtau la, ada ngat kat fb tuh, then dia kata mana ada, tu bukan lah...erm....mcm mana neh, nak caya ke dak?? bestu, mende tu bkn ley tetiba kita nak ada relationship ngan org, kene ada 2 pihak setuju. Ngek ah.....pehal ntah, tapi jap2, yg aku nak marah2 napa kan...hush, u very bahaya la Hidayah.

Ah, aku lupa nak cter, masa aku g interview aritu aku jumpa sorang neh, mcm Farah, dia sgt nice, aku suka dia. The second day dia x jadik amek test stengah jalan then sanggup dia tggu aku, dia ley je blah kot, lagipun bkn kenal sgt pun. But she's very nice. Aku bruntung jumpa org gtu kat bandar beso neh. Well, aku suka dia~

What I'm Gonna Do~

Hurm, baru balik dari interview bagai but xla baru sgt, siap da la mandi, makan n tgk cter korea. Hahahha. By the way kali ni pun aku x pasti, ye la kalau aku dpt dia suh stay kan, intuisi aku bab2 mende neg ni selalunya tepat. Well, its ok la, malas nak pikir, akuw at cam taik masa interview, aku first ko, so nebes. Well, yg da lepas da la....malas la.

Apa-apa pun jalan2 ke kl ley jupa Zlah, masih x brubah. Yess!!! akhirnya ada gak geng2 x matang aku, but the last time I saw her she looks more mature, or maybe because she's with her parents. Yes it is. N aku dpt beli Vanilla Vanilla that I love best, mesti Alang jeles. Hahahaha, N beli baju baru sbb emergency kene stay kl 2 hari. Zlah kata aku stress bukan apa, sbb da lama x kuar2 berhibur, dok terperap je kat lipis, of cuz, tepat sekali. Hurm....

Tadi ibu kata bla la ko neh nak dpt keje ntah. Aku da bgtau kat dia yg aku x yakin n dgn yakinnya aku yakin yg aku xkan dpt keje tuh. Well, I know best what I am doing right. Well, dia xla kesah sgt, tapi kata kata la bla la ko ney nak dpt keje. Aku tau dia sedey, aku pun sedey. Aku nak bg dia duit, belikan dia macam2, tudung cantik2, kasut cantik tapi tu la, ngan gaji aku skang ney aku je la yg lepas. Anak abes blaja universiti tapi tu la....Sorry mummy~ I'll try harder!!!

The Tiring Day

Yesterday when I just asleep, suddenly I got a phone call, it was Kak Nor, and I got the feeling maybe she want me to work on Saturday. Then I just answered the call and she said that I have to replaced Siti because her father died from a heart attack at 3.30 in the morning if I not mistaken. Then I feel obligated and come, I said that I did not have shower yet and she said that so do her and Mahfuz, come and have shower at canteen. Then for so early in the morning, I packed my bag, washed my face, brush my teeth and go. So cold in the morning. We prepared all and then one by one come. Later in the day, yeah, just like normally working hours but they said that actually normally its busier that this day, of course. I had many free time but yeah, I just handle kitchen, who makes water of course busy. Then the boys chat around, I go to the front and just listen and getting bored. I'm just too old to join their conversations. 18, 19, 20, how come I 25 joins in and its boys conversations. I getting bored, annoyed, and upset. Just hold on it. Then dishes comes, wash the dishes, eat, cooking vegetables. Acu comes late after the funerals and people suddenly swooning in and there were not much food. She asked me to cook some telur dadar and suddenly hot oil splashed onto my hand, actually its normal for who working in the kitchen but what I did not considered is that I will get bruises?? What ah?? not sure but the one when you had hot oil, kembung2 and I got sad. My poor hand. I was bored and send massage to Timah said that she' s not calling me for so long time and later she reply that she busy with the closing, she really busy and suddenly I feel like choking up. I lean on the wall, look at the sky and thinking when I will getting a good job and suddenly my eyes becomes teary. I went to the washroom and cried. Its so sad, considering that I still not working and don't have saving, don't have boyfriend and other am or already getting married, have stable job and have a good life and where am I?? Then I went to the hall and watch tv. Kak Nor watch Malay drama and fell asleep, I change the channel and its Heechul on tv~ Then the stupid Faris suddenly want to jokes around shut the tv and I getting annoyed. I was getting better and what the hell. And I felt my eyed becomes teary. They shocked and I don't know what to do, my eyes keeps teary. Its so embarrassing and foolish to cried in front of everyone. Its just I'm so tired, not getting enough sleep, bored, and sad looking at my life and hand. Then later when we wait for Acu's husband to fetch us a KL phone number comes in. I answered and its a called from ar....what telecommunication ek, I can't hear it clearly. Whatever it is, she called and asked me to comes on an interview as soon as possible. And I feel the cold dark cloud moving over my head. I suddenly cheered again. I was excited, after all the embarrassing and foolish act in front of everyone, I got a call. Hehe, God please, I'm not sure if I have the chance to do this considering that I'm not a good follower, but, please, I need to escaped from there, I mean, its fun there but yeah, kids. But kids, kids, today I will go to karaoke with them. I must be crazy. Hahaha, Together with Ewan, considering this is the last time I will meet him, not last but before he go to studying, Faris and Azrin. And huh, when I open my Facebook last night then I see that he added me, when he do that? I mean the time. Whatever, its not my time, and that Dak Ongek already have girlfriend, then now I can set my heart free. After all its just my wild crazy perasan imagination. Hehehe. I hope everything will go well. I really do.

I'm so sad, upsetting, frustrating and depressing~

Tadi aku msg Faris sbb aku teringat kami x penah kuar2 sama2 and Ewan akan g blaja soon. Aku ajak diorang jom minum2 then dia kata ok~ kul 5 abes keje. Then aku g la kat kafe MDL tu sbb nak jumpa ngan aku. Kejap tu smpai Ewan, lama kitorang duduk x smpai2 Farish then uper2 nye diorang x release lagi~ Then Farish smpai, bising gaji x masuk lagi, Azrin pun frust. Lama2 x jadik g sbb bengang. G umah Acik. Then bukak la cter mcm2. Yg len tu aku malas nak cter dlu tapi pasal Azrin. Dia bgtau kat Acik yg dia da x tahan da keje situ, dia nak brenti sooner or later, maybe next week or don't know. Aku cam, Uh?? dia kata dia penat, suma bende dia nak wat, then tambahan skang ni dia kene masak then keje dia bertambah. Dia jadik penat sgt. Owh.....jadik garis melintang bawah mata dia tu bukanlah garis sbb dia x tdo mlm tapi garis2 sbb dia penat. Hidayah, kenapalah ko boleh x perasankan. Aku jadik cam, Oh no~ aku selalu suruh2 dia wat mcm2 jugak, marah2 dia gak, org tu stress, dia kata selalu ye lah keje mmg la penat tapi skang neh penat kepala, dia x tahan. Dia dpr pointer tggi kat IP dlu, so tggu result kuar then mgkn dia akan smbg UPM. Of course, go for it, sedangkan aku wat degree so why not him. Tapi memikirkan saat aku marah2 dia, aku jadik cam, oh no~ Azrin, akak minta maaf sgt2. Aku selalu igt aku sensetive padahal aku x prasan Azrin sgt penat, aku x prasan Farish sgt penat. What happened to me?? I'm the oldest there, they all my babies but~ I don't know what I'm going to think about. They all will leaving me somehow. Now even Azrin?? then my working environment will change eventually. I have to prepared myself to lose to Azrin. We will meet together later, maybe tomorrow or Sunday, it depends. I want to look at him all chances that I have so that I have no regret later. I have too many regrets in life and I never wish to add more. I want to apologizes to everybody. Why this is happening? Why can't I have some happiness in my life? Its really depressing!!!!! I hate it so much to think about it.